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Sunday, August 15, 2010

WHO DO YOU WISH TO SEND MORE LOVE TO?
This is an exciting post for me! It is the very first one on my brand spankin' new blog that I designed myself after, just let me say, an obscene number of hours of trial and error and error and error. I wanted to see if a total computer illiterate like myself could do it and I am quite pleased. I really needed a new look from my old blog, Wildberry Gatherings, which was very pretty, but also very dark in color. This new blog really mirrors how I am feeling lately...more alive and more than a little sassy with life! So! That meant a new name for my business, as well! My daughter, Emily, came up with the idea. Seems I have made a point throughout my children's lives to point out to them (on occassion..ahem.) that "I am the Queen Bee around here." It seems the older I get, the more I repeat that I am the Queen..and you know what? I am kinda liking it. It seems to me that when you reach my age, you have kind of earned it. So, I say, with pride, that I dub thee, new blog..."Queen B. Attitude"! May she be a place for inspiration, laughter and honesty...the real deal. In that spirit, I answer Jamie Ridler's, "Wishcasting" question.."Who do I wish to send more love to?" The answer is one that feels a bit awkward for me to say...it comes from that old feeling that everything should be for everyone else and not for myself. In my life, I have found it very easy to love people. I have not had a problem showing the people in my life that I love them, in fact, I am known as the "Queen of Mush." I am one of those people who just have to hug, say "I love you" every time I hang up the phone and embarrass my kids with public displays of affection. No problem. There is only one person I can think of that I have met in my life that I found it nearly impossible to love...me. I grew up insecure, fearful and damaged..too much hurt, fear and rejection left me pretty damaged goods. Life has not been easy and with each heartbreak, I took it personally.. I obviously didn't deserve any better... God was not on my side, but the stern father, doling out punishment. On the outside, most people would say I was a very cheerful person who was always laughing and smiling. That is a huge part of who I am, but inside, I also was really lost within my negative thinking...and then, I turned fifty. So many women dread midlife and see it as a beginning to the end. Miraculously, for me, it has just been a beginning..a rebirth. With age comes clarity and I have finally begun to emerge out of that cocoon, that chrysalis and I am ready to shed that dried up old exterior and put on my new self. My authentic self...the one I was created to be..imperfect, but enough. For me..that is a huge step in the right direction. So, in that spirit, I send myself some love. Love to that little girl inside who has been angry for most of her life at the unfairness of it all...Love to that girl in the mirror who is not the size 6 she once was, but who is still told she is beautiful by her soul mate everyday and is now, just beginning to believe it..and Love to that fearful spirit who is ready to accept her place as a child of God, created and destined for great things and ready to make them happen. It is a long time coming and I still have to get used to these new wings of mine. I have loved those around me. It's about time I stretch those wings and love myself. So, when I thought of naming my business, "Queen B. Artistry" I was apprehensive...what if people think I am all full of myself and wonder, "Who does she think she is?" Well, the truth is," Queen B. Attitude" is not all about me. My vision for my blog is to inspire and encourage an attitude of self acceptance and love of life for all who read it. We are all Queens in our own lives and I have come to realise something. The more we love ourselves and nurture our creativity and passion and take care of ourselves, the more powerful our love will be for others. We will come from a healthy place, a joyous place..a place of gratitude and confidence, brimming with positive energy that can't help but spill over into everything we do and touch everyone we meet with love. THAT is the authentic life and the one I was created to be...the one you were created to be. So, as I wish to send more love to myself, I wish also to send it outward to you. May you be blessed with full measure to overflowing and embrace all that love has to offer!



13 comments:

  1. I love your new name and your new attitude! I'm impressed with your new blog. I also need to sit down and spend some long hours figuring out how to change and improve mine. Thanks for the inspiration.

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  2. Oh how I loved this post today. The new Blog is "beautiful" and I can feel you as tears run down my face. Thank you for writing this, as it touched me deeply - you fly girl ! http://www.designsbylindar.blogspot.com

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  3. LOVE! LOVE! LOVE ... the new look Roberta. On my way out to work now ... and don't want to go ... because I just got here. Will be back tonight! Create look Roberta ... can't wait to come back and read every word .... xo

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  4. What a beautiful post. I can feel the love you are opening up too and letting in...it is so very powerful.
    Roberta, as you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well!
    --Jo Anna

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  5. Lovely! This is gorgeous, Roberta. I am so grateful you popped by my blog and left your wish for me, too. So kind of you.

    Ahhhh, taking your wish in through my breath and joining you....

    As Roberta wishes for herself, so I wish for her also...

    Love! Wish! Love! Wish! Love! Wish! Love!

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  6. I love this post. Hats off to you for sending love to yourself, so many of us wouldn't think to do so. Love the new blog and great attitude.

    Seanora

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  7. I LOVE IT !!! You go girl. Your post touched so much in me, sometimes I had the awkward feeling you were writing about me. So many feelings and experiences sound familiar... And just like you, turning fifty for me wasn't the begining of the end - it was more like gaining freedom, those wings were itching to learn to fly... I'm so glad I found your blog!

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  8. I just saw your post! Congrats on the new blog. It looks amazing! I am all about authentic, artful abundance too. I can relate to you are spreading your wings now. I am starting to fly a little too. I see us as a flock of fabulous Creative birds. Hum, perhaps that is some inspiration! If you are interested, come visit my blog. I am working on fearless so here it goes. www.darlakirhcner.blogspot.com Take care!

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  9. I too... have tears in my eyes. As Roberta wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

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  10. As Roberta wishes for herself and her younger self, so I wish for her (and myself too). I can relate to much of what you say and it is always so heartening to know we are not alone. I love the look and name of the new blog, it really reflect what you are saying here.

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  11. Hi Roberta, I think this blog is so kewl, and beautiful too...I'm happy to find it!!! Found you through Paulette Insall's new FB group!!!
    Blessings,
    Bevie
    http://dreamsofpurelove.blogspot.com

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  12. Roberta, cheers to a sassy new blog and the mamma Queen Bee embracing her empowered self! You are truly an inspiration! ♥Tee

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  13. I keep checking back to see how much more of your new website has been created! It is coming together beautifully! I also love that you are finally embracing what I have known all along......just what a beautiful, talented, amazing, person you are!
    Love ya always,
    Sherry

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